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Im not Homosexual, but… Need women opinion. May I ask a personal question?
Jun 15th
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Im 18, Ive never had sex, but i was sexual molested by my brother when I was 11 and i have developed noticeable social disorders sense then…for example i am agoraphobic http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Agoraphobia
I have very low self esteem issues, and im always mentally lonely and i get very emotional about personal matters. I just want someone to hug me now and then and im not very good at approaching females about my feelings I try my best to act masculine, but if i get pushed to the limit i just ball out cry because i have no one to talk to about how I feel and i don't want to talk to family because it makes things awkward, Its not like im ugly or i don't think i am <,< its just that i have a personal barrier, I just don't like to show weaknesses or anything but i know that i have them like everyone else and i just subconsciously avoid confrontation with women that are attracted to me because i don't want to fail them. Im really immature when it comes to things that involve society like jobs and things because i have a mindset that being successful doesn't matter when I die and that I should point my life just to be happy and have a family. I just don't know what to do, and I get like this at night because i bottle everything up. Not to mention sex scares me in general with another person, im afraid that i might hurt females during intercourse, i also like to be anally massaged with a toys or vibrators…and i don't want to like scare relationships away, ide also like to know if this is normal or not and is normally excepted by females. Sex isn't really on my mind though…its just mostly i need someone I can trust, love, talk too, and accept me for who I am and not have all these expectations and be patient with me on my responsibilities because i have heavy anxiety disorders and i get really physically and mentally emotional about it causing me to cry a lot and just sleep allot. But im sure if i had a partner everything would go away and i wouldn't abusive drugs or cry all the time i would sell my right hand just to be able to just have someone legitimately care how I feel and I to legitimately care how my partner felt, I am in real need for this bond and i don't know how to get to get involved with the very same women im afraid of verbally and sexually.
Iwould never tell the police about my brother, even though he did that too me i forgive him. but iwill never have a brother relationship with him. Not to mention i dont really remember it, Ijust know it happened.
Ihave a pretty logical mind and if im in my "safe place" ican thoroughly think things through and know what ineed to do.its just idon't have any urge to do them.being agoraphobic gives me constant panic attacks and anxiety attacks when im in a grocery store or the mall or anywhere, even if theres like a party at my house, just in my room or with people i trust is where im confertable. But for the most part, im impersonal because i don't like it when people worry about me.
And im not expecting a partner to change me…im more of expecting myself to be change by finding a partner that i trust.
And as for slowly going forward in life i got my drivers license for the first time. even though driveing in general scares me. I mean this all sounds extremly bad but its normal to me.
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